OK, so now I am REALLY counting down the weeks. I am also getting the stares when we go places and many times people will come up to me and ask me, "Oh my goodness when are you due?" When I tell them I still have about a month to go they usually act like they are in shock...like they have never seen a pregnant woman before. Actually, I just think it is human nature to forget how truly miserable it can be at the end and how enormous we can actually get as pregnant women. Actually, I correct myself...it is by the grace of God that we forget. Otherwise we wouldn't be populating the earth, right?
This pregnancy has been filled with so many highs and lows. You know, typical female hormones pumping on high... double time if you count the little girl inside of me:)
Actually, the one thing that I feel the Lord whispering to me over and over again are the words sacrifice, joy, and contentment. I constantly battle the "it's all about me" attitude in my state of being completely uncomfortable. Sometimes even to the point that it effects my family.
Every pregnancy provides an incredible opportunity for stretching me beyond my limits. It's a slow growing, stretching process of sorts and, sometimes it is just plain painful. It's also a daily battle to fight against the flesh during these times because all my flesh wants to do is cry out, "I give up!" Well, the Lord is teaching me joy, contentment and the meaning of sacrificing my SELF during these times. He has also shown me that He has sacrificed more than I will ever be required. I have it easy compared to what He has already done for me. In fact, I have learned that His grace IS sufficient, even at my weakest moments. For when I am weak He truly is strong and right now I definitely feeling slow, huge,and weak! To be honest I have also truly missed seeing some friends that I usually see on a more regular basis and that has been tough. I am looking forward to feeling up for preparing for company at our house once again!
On another note, I cannot wait to meet the little one. It is always amazing to me that there is a complete personality wrapped up in such a tiny bundle. I also ran across a verse that I have prayed over and over for her. It's really pieces of Deut. 30 :20, but I love it:
"...that you may love the Lord your God, listen to His voice, and hold fast to Him; for the Lord IS your life..."
3 comments:
Hope your last month or so goes by quickly!
I can relate to your post and all the feelings, highs & lows, and even just the constant strength and grace needed from our Father through it all!
God is indeed faithful!
It's getting so close! Thanks for sharing your personal ups and down while being pregnant - it's really encouraging.
I laughed when you wrote about how every pregnancy provides an opportunity to grow and stretch, sometimes painfully -- true spiritually AND physically!
Only a little bit of time left and we all get to meet this new little Leininger girly!
We really need to catch up. Thanks for calling the other day, we're looking forward to seeing you guys soon!
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